So lately I have been feeling a little bit unworthy. I feel like everything I do is wrong or if I don't do something I get disappointed in myself. I have felt disappointed in myself lately, I feel like I just keep making mistake after mistake. I feel like that sense I keep making the same mistakes, making promises I don't keep, that I'm too unworthy to approach the Lords throne. I always wondered how people could feel unworthy and be too afraid to approach the Lord because they think he's mad at them but now I feel that way. I wonder if he still loves me, if I can still be involved in the plan he has for me or if now I messed it up so bad that it's out of the question. I feel like I've been praying the same thing over and over with no result...Natalie Grant put it in a good way "my prayers feel like there bouncin' off the sky" I went to coffee with one of my dear friends in the Lord and she said whenever I'm feeling like my prayers aren't getting through to just "pray harder". That seems so simple...pray harder. I'm guessing that just means to press in. The Bible says good comes to those who earnestly seek him (Jesus). I just wish this whole mindset of rules would break off because the way I think of God right now is totally wrong. He's not angry, he's not mean he's full of compassion. He doesn't want us to live like puppets on a string he wants us to live, and walk in the freedom he died to give. He loves us more than we will ever know.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." ~ Matthew 11:28-30
Love~
you don't need to feel unworthy of anyone. you are a good person and you shouldn't feel ashamed of anything and you need to know that people do love you down here, too.
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